getting attached to your fallen pieces.

what is it like for people whose mind does not think a hundred thoughts all at once? is it easier for them? how do people go with the flow, and let life take them away; willingly, and accept the outcome eventually?

"I am both happy and sad at the same time, and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be". charlie has been a character i was always fond of. an over-thinking little kid who just wants the best for the people who love. a book that broke me into pieces, and a book that picked me up again. Stephen Chbosky has a flow of storytelling that grasp you into a string and ties you back together again to a beautiful knot.

i often revisit this book (and movie) in times when i feel like everything around me is too much. sometimes you forget to take a breath, step back and let everything sink in. and sometimes you need to let the cool breeze blow through your hair when you take a walk in the park, and you see everything that is in front of you, and everything will become memories. or maybe you will just forget them. let them be a course of time you will not check back on.

throughout the novel, charlie narrates his life in an anonymous letter, which is a direct conversation he is having with the reader. he tries his very best at navigating the life he was given. everyone around his life is so precious to him and it seems as though he can feel and empathize with their pain. he doesn't question a lot of things, but he tries to understand why it happened. his character revolves around questions as to why people do things they do, without questioning them, or belittling them, but trying to understand them. often times he forgets to think for himself and puts others' needs instead of his. everything that he has felt, gone through, and going through falls into pieces and eventually gets attached to him without him noticing it.

perk was a word i rarely used, and never quite understood, until this book. suffice to say i watched the movie first before the book. and quite surprisingly, i can say that it is just as quite as good. enchanting, melancholic with characters who just want to hug.

"To stand shyly apart from a dance, waiting to be asked to join in." is what wikipedia describes a wallflower to be, which the author perfectly incorporated in his book. nothing describes charlie more than a wallflower. someone who sees, someone who waits, and someone who understands. a basket case that tries his best to fit in.

picture i took of the sunrise while i was on my flight to canada this january. there's something so powerful about the sunrise and the sunset to evoke such intense emotions in you. i wonder if i'll ever figure out what that is.

what's the most recent book that you read? would you mind sharing a quote from it that resonated with you?